To know me is to know that I can be hyper passionate about Things. On a daily basis Things float into my orbit and I sometimes can't shake them. I sometimes see these things in a side glance....I sometimes see them head on..... and a lot of the time I see them in my mind's rear view mirror from a different vantage point.
Inspiration. I'm always looking for it, I'm always injected with it. Inspire. In me. For some reason, a reason I can be pretty sure of, I am intensely vulnerable to these Things right now.
You know Superman, right? You know he has super powers, right? I'm in SuperNately mode right now. And my super powers? To feel EVERY god damn emotion with the intensity of every Super Hero combined. Yeah. Today, I watched three things on the computer at work and cried at each and everyone of them. If I'm not crying about it, I've got goosebumps everywhere.
And it's a god damn riot I tell ya. I end up just laughing at myself, by myself. It's a good thing. I like it. I like it a lot.
Anyway, I wanted to share some deep inspiration with you all today. It's good stuff. And it makes me happy. I sometimes worry that people don't feel the inspiration, or the heat, behind things like I do. But then I realize, the right people.....they do. And sometimes, I open people up to things that they would otherwise go unknowing about. I open them up to it, and give them some kind of inspiration.
The cool thing...the really miraculous thing, in my mind anyway, is that if you look hard enough you can find a message or an emotion, in Just About Anything.
- Yo. So much happened to me today when I watched this. First and foremost....the premise of not being able to listen to a song because it reminds me of someone....I FUCKING GET IT !!!! Secondly, it's a gay couple.....something that I get emotional about every time I see it in mainstream media. It's so fucking amazing to see this in my lifetime. I remember a time when this sort of thing was shameful, and that both hurts still....but mostly, I am so fucking happy to not be labeled something disgusting...because of who I am. Thirdly, one of the dudes is Dustin Lance Black. And that makes me VERY happy. If you remember he won an Oscar for Milk. (and then there was the homemade porn of him fucking another guy bareback that caused a HUGE outcry.....#getoverit) Watch the video. It's powerful And the end...I get it. I feel it every day.
- "You have to get lost before you find yourself". Teenage angst a la Perks of Being a Wallflower or The Fault in Our Stars. You bet your ass I'm on there. For some reason the concept of big sweeping events shaping who and how you become the best version of you....those sorts of things invade me to the core. If I can laugh through some misty eyes and think of the events from my own adolescence I am a happy man. I may be "a certain age", but parts of me are just never going to grow up. I'll always love this kind of movie or book.
- Rita Ora. This song has been on repeat for about three weeks now. "but nothing ever gets me high like this, I pick my poison and it's you. Nothing could kill me like you do. You're going straight to my head, and I'm headed straight for the edge....." Identification with lyrics...check. Feeling like Rita Ora is hittin it hard lately with her image....check. Get it. Get it.
- Florence unleashed this whole CD with a snippet of this song. The song, in it's entirety is just outstanding. I can't stop listening to it, and getting new things out of it each time. It's lush, conflicted lyrics take my breath away. "What are we going to do, we opened a door and it's all coming through..." As many of you know, I cherish Florence. This new album is perhaps the one I identify with the most. Girlfriend was going THROUGH IT when she wrote these songs. She's really clear about it, being about a broken soul and heart. And while I may be past the heartache of it all, it never really goes away does it ? "So much time on the other side, waiting for you to wake up...." On this track, she references the lyrics from another track..."What Kind of Man". Brilliant. Brilliant ball of fire she is. Thank you for giving her to me :)
- The beautiful goodbye. Inspiration comes from me too. Directly from within me. So I'm sharing something I wrote a week ago. It's personal, and it's a bit......well it's subject matter again that is recalling things from the past....but it's my fabric. And I write to heal. Heal I have. And here it is.
May 26, 2015
I'm driving home from the beach.
The day after Memorial Day. I am smiling and so very happy. #lifeisbeautiful
Two years ago at this exact time, on this exact day, I sat next to you, westbound, on the LIRR.
You had that god-forsaken eye mask/pillow covering your face. To sleep and to avoid us.
I sat next to you knowing once we parted ways, it was goodbye forever.
The closer we got to street level, from the depths of Penn station, the closer we got to our final goodbye.
As you stood with your tote bags next to the escalator and the face of total indifference, I tried to hug you and kiss you goodbye. You looked away. And that is how I remember you. That last time I really saw you, the last time.....and that is a beautiful moment for me now. It helps me know it's how it would always end up. You turning your head away as I tried. Full of yourself. Empty of truth.
Just keep your eyes open. Show me what you see too. What inspires you, makes you feel goosebumps.....what makes you think of fantastical and bountiful things ???
Show me. Always.
Nately