You see. I've had this itch.
It's not the wintry restlessness that you may attribute it to. It's bigger.
It's not need for bigger/better/harder. It's bigger than that.
It's not due to any feeling of sadness or emptiness. It's bigger.
I feel things in my bloodstream, pulsing and burning through me. It's been 5 years since my life had any drastic changes (minus the grief I experienced). My life has been tempered and unmoving, it's parts changing, but never elevating. Along with that has come a certain amount of stability. Stability also brings complacency.
There has been movement in my life, prompted by something out of my control. I have until December 2015 to turn my world upside down and make some big changes. The catalyst for this change is an unforeseen variable that creates fear and tension, but it's time.
I've been waiting for something to change, and now an outside force has made my path more evident.
Starting a new media interface is something I have been tossing about in my brain. I've not had the direct motivation to do so, but woke up last week and knew I had to. I had to close out a chapter for good. Open a new one, for the better.
The past is the past. It forms my future. The past is with me when I listen to a new song. The past is with me when I meet a new person. And the past. Is the past. I won't say I will keep it closed, or won't talk about it. But I'm not longer holding it in my left palm, reading it's contents as I once did.
I've got new worlds to discover. I've got new colors to feel.
My hope for this website is to turn it into something more palatable for more entities. I've got plenty people who follow the edges and inner caverns of my mind/heart/soul. And this feeds me. My creativity in writing, in expression.....it feeds and frees me at the same time. So I will continue to do what I do.
I will continue to find what kind of man I am. And I will do so in your presence. With your smiles. With my snark. With this site. And a little bit of love.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for coming. Thank you....for you. and stay tuned.
Much -
Nately xoxox